Get up, Stand up, Show up!!
Jul 11, 2022
Two weeks ago, I was in ED with what they called non-lactating mastitis. (I woke up with it after dreaming I had a son born on the 4th August.) I had fevers, flu-like symptoms and a painful lump the size of a golf ball in my left breast.
After ultrasounds, blood tests and nine hours in emergency, I was sent home with antibiotics.
After a week, the infection cleared up and I continued training for the Outback Marathon to be held in Uluru on the 28th July, 2022.
Four days ago, the infection flared up again. I woke up in a pool of sweat, and excruciating pain.
Another round of antibiotics and waiting for another scan in three days where they will determine what it is exactly and what the treatment plan will be. My Dr thinks it's a cyst which they will drain either with a needle or surgery.
I feel miserable, angry, frustrated and scared. My focus atm is meditation with the intention of healing.
Over the last few days as I meditate and explore my inner world, I feel sadness, anger, resentment, frustration, and fear. Sometimes we don't know exactly why we feel the way we do, but I do know that this world weighs heavy on me a lot of the time. We are forced to live within a 'system' that is soul destroying. I'm still trying to work out how to live in this world without taking on the heavy load and the negativity it brings.
Our body is always communicating with us and giving us messages. I feel that my body is whispering to me that it's time to create a new way to live, to change my perceptions, my perspectives, and to trust that life is pushing me to grow and to evolve into a new way of being.
"I am open for Great Spirit to jump in the driver's seat and lead the way, to guide me back to my true nature and life's purpose."
The First Law of Nature is Self-Preservation.
Self-Preservation is defined as; preservation of oneself from harm or destruction. So why do we put our needs and wants aside for others? Why do we fill our minds with negative self-talk? Why do we fuel our body with junk? Why do we put our dreams and goals on the backseat?
A wise Aunty once told me that "If you were born on this land, you are of this land."
Which means learning the history and cultural practices of the first peoples who walked this sacred, beautiful country is so important for the health and wellness of our present and future generations. Our cultural practices are healing and will help us stay connected and centred in this crazy fucking world we're living in.
Mother Nature is our life source and our connection to our True Nature. We are living in a world where everything is fast paced, fake, and polluted. We have become disconnected and obsessed with our appearance instead of what's inside our heart.
Ask yourself;
- Am I living out my life's purpose?
- What brings me joy?
- Am I doing those things everyday?
- Do I spend quiet time in nature?
- Have I formed a relationship with Spirit/God/Universe/Mother Nature?
- Do I know who I am?
- Am I filled with peace, love, joy?
- Do I experience feelings of hate, guilt, shame or anger?
- Have I committed to my healing journey?
- What are my core values I live each day by?
- Am I in alignment with my true nature?
- Do I spent quiet time alone just listening to my breath?
There is more to life than what we see on the surface level. I believe that the cultural practices of our First Nations people is the key to true happiness. We need to open our hearts and connect with our spirit.
Why were we born? What are we supposed to do/be in this life? To express, to feel, to create?
All we have is time. Don't waist it with fake bullshit!
Loads of love, light and epic vibes,
Charlie xo
