Journal entry 13/11/23

Healing is a holistic process, which addresses mental, physical, emotional and spiritual needs. It involves connections to culture, family and land. 

A couple of days ago, I had a healing ceremony that was led by one of my work colleagues and beautiful friend. The amazing women I work with, my sisters, gathered at my place to hold space for me to heal. It was exactly what I needed. Words can't describe how special that afternoon was, and I will forever cherish those memories in my heart. 

 Indigenous healing practices include: 

• Deep listening.
• Relationships.
• Connection to Country.
• Culture.
• Family and Community healing focus.
• Mind, body and emotions.
• Singing/dancing
• Spirituality.

I slept so good that night, like the heaviness had been lifted. 

Journal entry 15/11/23

I started back at work this week, this is my third day. I do three days a week as a Project Officer for Bumbira- A women's wellness program supporting Aboriginal women 15 and above to help improve social and emotional wellbeing. (Seems so fitting that I am a part of the very thing I need most right now.) I feel like what I am going through is for a reason, it has to be. I'd like to think that this is giving me the capacity to be able to help women going through the same thing. 

I keep thinking that there is a bigger plan in the works, and that I have got to trust that everything is happening for me, to pave the way for something bigger than myself. Maybe I need to let go of who I am, to become what I might be?

The other two days of my working week, I am a hairstylist in a salon. Cutting hair has always been therapy for me, although yesterday I couldn't give my clients what I usually can. I tried to be happy and positive, but it took all that I had. I saw my last client out, then went out the back and bawled my eyes out. 

One thing is for sure, change is in the air. I'm not sure what it is yet, but I am open and ready. I need to look at my pain like a compass that is guiding me. I'll continue to sit in meditation and wait for the answers. I'll keep asking spirit the questions and wait for the guidance to come. Let's dance Universe! I'm ready. 

Sending you all the love, light and epic vibes,

Charlie xo